Scribbling Wall

2010-01-04T11:03:00.000-08:00

Feelings,

please do not betray me. please do not let emotions take control and wreck havoc. Feelings, please do not cause hurt to me and others closest to me.

On failures and success

2009-10-29T06:26:00.001-07:00

Dear me,

i m writing to you to let you know that failures do not make you a failure. Yes, on the contrary on what you think and believe, you are not a failure. God does not design you to be a failure. Therefore, failures do not equals that you are a failure. Fear. You are so fearful of failure. When your mind tells you that you are a failure, your emotionally and spiritually state will be at the weakest. Remember! It's a lie to think that you are a failure. Do not fear. Success comes when you reflect and learn from failures. But do not fear to take responsibility! Do not let the fear of failure captivate you.

Thank you God! Your grace and love abounds!

Swirling Thoughts

2009-10-27T05:08:00.000-07:00

I decide to write something, to scribble my jumble-up thoughts again.

- i realized that my perceived self-worth is based on my perceived achievement.

formula: self_worth = achievement (wrong!)

i feel like the top of the world when i have achieved something..whether in career, academics, music, etc.. and when i stumble and fall, so is my perceived self-worth, it goes down ..
i have to stop thinking like this. for my self-worth and identity is in You..Lord, help me to grasp and hold on to this truth..

formula: self_worth = You + Cross (correct!)

- God, need You to help me to do research! i really am lost!

One of those bluesy night

2009-09-19T13:01:00.000-07:00

There is this famous saying "Life is like a roller-coaster". First is up, then the next instance is down. and the cycle goes on n on.
tonight , or rather this early morning (4.04am) is one those nights which i m feeling ....feeling..lost, blues, confused. depressed maybe? hope not. anyway, couldnt stand being alone in d room, so i decided to head to McD's in town. i felt much better in the car while driving, i always love driving with "Acoustic Alchemy" playing softly. come to think of it, driving makes me feel i m in control. especially when the road is rather quiet and free from jam. i m just finding myself..
so back here in McD, feeling refreshed physically after a big mac , fries and all. i love being around people, yet i prefer to be quiet one, observing ppl's smile and laughter. McD's is usually full of happy ppl ..

here are some thoughts i want to relieve them down:

- emotions are deceptive to me. because i m so afraid that my feelings betray me contrary of my best intentions. these days, i feeling a vaguely soothing emotion yet confusing. i like the feel yet i knw i should use more of my head and wisdom. gotta be strong here and guard my emotions.

- life ..life ...debt ridden. my debts are study loan. before i stepped into working world, i was such an idealistic person. full of hopes, dreams and none of the concern and skepticsm. today , after 3 years working, the sequence of thought has been reversed. yes, chasing after the wind..just like what the Bible is talking bout. Yes, the Bible talks bout the futility of life without Him..i need to find You in my life, without You, life is utterly meaningless..even if $, status, talent, etc

- Loneliness. Nowadays i felt lonely. Far from Him , distance from loved one. I like to have time alone but hate the feeling of loneliness. Time alone and loneliness is not equivalent. Nop, there are not. at the moment , i have no real "family bond". Could it be one of the reason? Friends. Yes they are the colours of my life, yet not exactly always here for me. i also realized that loneliness comes from within. It is possible for me to feel lonely eventhough i m surrounded by friends.

- Music. Musicians are temperamental. that's what they always say. i m a musician, not pro, but not bad, over the average maybe. however, i aint a poser in loving music. Music is an integral part of me n life. I think i m such a emotional person, i really wish that i m not. i envy happy go lucky people. but that's just me. i try not to show it much in front of people but when alone, the emotional part of me surface. Expressing myself through music. a song always has a message. its true!

- Smile and laugh. I need to see the world with much smile and laughter. i m learning from people who loves life, enjoying with smile and laughter. yup, i constantly need to remind myself to smile always, DESPITE of circumstances.

- I thank God for everything. I thank God for blessing me when i dont deserve it. I thank God because Your love never fails, Your grace is always with me. I thank God, because You watch over me even when i let You down and not thanking You enough..I thank God because You are Love.

- Weak. Humans are weak. So m i. Fragile. Physically, emotionally, intellectually. I need to depend on You. Help me to remember to depend and acknowledge You in everything i do.

- Research. I am trying to fall in love with research. i need You to point me to right direction. I need You to show me the light and wisdom. Because all wisdom and knowledge comes from You. You who create the heavens and the earth.

- Pride. i realized that i have pride in me. Sometimes i m critical towards people. I think of how they should act and speak according to my own standards. Who am i to judge? yet, sometimes i felt that i m better than them. I believe that i have improved on this area over the years, but i check on not allowing it to surface..

Ok...i m tired now. Feeling relieved when i can put d0wn these thoughts in words. Before that, they were like all mixed up in a soup in my mind..i dont expect any1 reading this blog anyway..this is more like a personal diary to me, a scribbling wall..

time to hit the road and go home..

Thank you God. Sincerely. I knw i m not thanking You enough..

Quiet n a Bluesy Nite

2009-08-27T09:06:00.000-07:00

I recalled a verse quoted by a close friend of mine, it goes:

A fool finds no pleasure in understanding but delights in airing his own opinions. (Proverbs 18:2)

Reflecting oh this verse, i couldnt agree more to this verse. Afterall, this verse was given through King Solomon, who is the wisest man who held the most understanding during his time.

Many a times, situations seen gathered heads debating certain issues (and non-issues) that are to be addressed at that point of time. Or someone needed a couple of advice from a group of buddies. Out of my ol' habit, i am contented by observing and listening to understand and reflect the proceeding conversation.

Well, i honestly wonder if some of the debate points , advice, opinions and arguments are necessary and well-meaning. Some people may disagree but i sincerely suspect many opinions or advice are formulated just so to reflect the "intelligence" or "maturity" of the speaker.

There are times these "listeners" (they really should listen more than they speak) present were so eager to juice out whatever opinions / advice they had in them. Without thinking. Without the wanting and openness to understand first the issue. Without looking at the bigger picture. Without first listening to what others have to say. The way i hear them, opinions are sometimes voiced on the basis of appearing intellectual.

Opinions are just a package to disguise under-current egos.

Worse yet, most of these "intellectual" opinions are just..well..opinions that don't really contribute anything at all..they do not empathize with the real issue at hand or function as potential solutions. Sometimes, they merely create confusion; side-tracking the real issue or sweeping the issue under the carpet! (Malaysian style,huh!).

Everyone is looking for the chance to appear intellectual, hence let's all race to see who can give the most intellectual , never-thought-of opinions? Suddenly, the entire perspective is shifting towards people to sound intellectual and clever. The original subject of matter had long been side-lined. Sad..

Sayings like "Walk the Talk" or "Actions speaks louder than Words" are so true! Likewise, the credibility of the person must come first before we may accept and respect his opinion and advice.

Couple of thoughts

2009-08-16T08:33:00.000-07:00

- Life needs direction, esle, we are just running in circles. better to stop running, take a seat under a tree. get a map and course your direction. Take as much time getting your bearings right. But of course, get up and start running again.

- Products need marketing. So are people.Simple truth. Some talk and brag loudy, some wish to be seen in happening places, some are active in the Internet community, some wish to be friends with happening people, some wrap themselves with designer outfits, cars, bla bla etc. Today's game is all about marketing isnt it?

- Ignorance is bliss. This particular "wise say" to me have two qualities - one is that it couldn't be any nearer to truth itself, second it has a distinct cynical perspective to life. Thomas Gray is the author of the saying. According to wiki: Gray was so self critical and fearful of failure that he only published 13 poems during his lifetime, and once wrote that he feared his collected works would be "mistaken for the works of a flea." Half full or a half empty glass of water, neither the water nor glass should decide for me.

- Apart from music, another undying interest (interest that i ll carry on while on earth) is reading fictional books- action, political, epic, legends, fantasy, mystery, thriller, sci-fi..the sorts.I wont bother naming the authors..simply because there are many many favourite authors of mine, and even more names that i have forgotten.. haha. To me, the these authors had created,crafted and spinned the most intruguing settings, characters, storyline, dialogues. The magic and sentiments of the world between the covers of a book. I think i like books because no matter the outcome of the book, the contents can never change..it's all set..all set by the author. So..writing a book is equavalent to becoming a "god" in the fictional world. reading a book is akin to knowing the author's mind.

- Quote: "Why so serious?" - The Joker , 2009. I must and shall count my blessings everyday. Because of You, i am blessed abundantly. Thank You.

Badminton

2008-12-22T05:02:00.000-08:00

I love badminton. my frens sometimes proclaim me an addict to badminton. Yeah, i play like 2 or 3 times a week at least. Why badminton? It's just like asking a drunkard, y keep drinking alcohol and n ending up pissing yourself all over? there are frens who are just like me, badminton lovers (or u can say badminton addicts). i love everyhing of badminton. the sweat. the feeling of sitting and watching a good game (or bad ones) from the bench. the sound of smashing. the sight of people falling on the floor after failing miserably to return the shuttle. of coz followed by sound of laughing. then comes the turn to play. briefly forgetting the realities of life and just focusing on the game :D. this post sounds abstract to many, but badminton players will understand this. Happy smashing!

Year 2009

2008-12-22T04:53:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile since i wrote something on this blog. Sorry, "awhile" is a understatement! it's been ONE WHOLE YEAR since the last post. I m not really into blogs, for one reason, i don't appreciate life as an open book. rather like it personal like a closed diary. Ya knw wat i mean? somehow, this blog is more of a memory of the past, therefore i m trying to revive it again, hopefully i m not lazy to update this :P.
1 year have whizzed past so fast..! so fast that i sometimes take stuffs for granted. reflecting back this 1 year -> loved one, frens, my career, my studies, badminton, Cross Fusion etc. Year 2009 is approaching, there are resolutions i want to make and hold it till 2010. The important thing is that i make the right resolutions :)

Random Observation

2007-07-04T05:05:00.000-07:00

The 3rd week of the Trimester 1 kicks in..
Campus life is beginning to pick up the pace.
The concourse area is so crowded, with various clubs try to pull new members.
So many ppl around, engaged in their own activities.
No wonder the campus seems so crowded nowadays.
No wonder there are more and more classes with weird timing and venues.
No wonder the Alpha IT and Alpha Engineering will be moving to CyberJaya by end of this year.
No wonder there is alwiz no parking place when u need one.
The list goes on..

Was glancing around at all the different faces in the crowd at concourse area..
Trying to see if can distinguish between new students and the senior students..

Based on observation*:
*disclaimer: based on random observation and generalization, statement may not be 100% accurate :)

A person is a Fresh Student if he or she:

1) calls the lecturer "teacher, teacher" or instead of "sir,madam".
2) raise up hand and announce to the lecturer (and class) that he or she needs to go to the loo.
3) prints out the subject course info & outline and diligently studies them in library corner.
4) wears a long sleeve shirt and slacks with black shoes to class. (for the guys)
5) wears very decent outfit to class. (for the gals)
6) has eyes that are big and shiny coz they are innocent. (errr, ok , i made that up :P)
7) has mouth that never seem to close coz they are awed by MMU. (obviously, i made that up...)
8) comes and ask you on how to register and PAY for a hotmail account. (Allrite!This is TRUE, a student asked me on that)
9) extremely talkative. (noisy)
10) talks on the phone with mum every night.

Enough said of the new green students, below are the traits of the Old Ones (Senior students)...

1) they are nocturnal creatures: awake at night, hibernates during the day
2) they are nocturnal creatures: they feed most at night (supper, yum yum)
3) they are nocturnal creatures: they hunt and play most active at night (sports, movies, etc)
4) they went for a toilet break during classes and never came back.
5) during classes, they are able to detach their mind and soul from their body. (sleeping, daydreaming)
6) they are looking for a girlfriend or boyfriend before they graduate. (if current status is single)
7) they come to class with short and slippers.
8) they only start printing out the subject notes few days before the examination.
9) they know where is the best makan places in town (Malacca).
10) they fell in love with Malacca and want to stay in Malacca.

Miscommunication

2007-06-28T20:45:00.000-07:00

CADP Dinner

2007-06-21T08:09:00.001-07:00

MMU CADP (Diploma Programme) dinner at Century Mahkota Hotel.
Food was unexpectedly good!
Ranging from sotong, fish, steak, satay, sup cendawan, even crabs! *buffet*
Justified the price of 65 bucks / person. (*MMU club fees*) ^_^
Games and lucky draw follows after dinner.
Got a multi-features telephone for lucky draw :) (no, not handphone though)

Reality of Eternity

2007-06-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

Read bout the true account stories bout heaven and hell.

http://dreamsandvisions.wordpress.com/tag/visions/

Cant help but be reminded of the verse:

Philippians 2:12 (New International Version)

12Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling.

Weekends

2007-06-19T06:57:00.001-07:00

Went to singapore during d weekends.
There is big sale goin on all around singapore.
The whole weekend was spent going around the City with sweetheart.
She bought some stuff , girl stuff.
Me, i bought a bass EFX. It was so cool, love at 1st sight so i bought it! Actually i was looking for an efx for some time d..
Anyway..

** taa daaaa***

tested the sound , pretty impressive.
Expecially luv the auto-wah, put some funky slap and it sounds pretty awesome :)

Will go down to jb and singapore again this coming weekend.
Friend's sisters wedding at JB.
Then wana drop by singapore c sweetheart again.

Thank You Students :)

2007-06-19T05:38:00.000-07:00

Acedemic Evaluation report is out.
Report that shows the lecturer / tutor results based on the ratings and evaluations made by students online.
Felt a little jittery when logging into the system to check .....

*pressed enter*

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*view result*

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report pops up!!

LECTURE

TUTORIAL

LAB (Tutor)

LAB (Lecturer)

MEAN

4.2696

4.2633

4.3250

N/A

shocked -> disbelief-> belief -> surprised -> joy

YAY-ness :) darn, tat was ok!! (the maximum points is 5)

Here are some of the nicest comments by the students:

1.Everything's excellent (kewl..!)

2.Execellent in conveying the right message for lecture session and also the lab session. Have the capability to make students really understand about the subject eventough this is very first Sem. He is in the right field (teaching field). All the very best to him... (yeah, tats more like it!!)

7.Im really proud to have Mr.Liew as my lecturer. He is execellent in his teaching exspecially in his lab section. His teaching is very easly understood and improved me alot. I really apprieciate his kindess and ablity in teaching. I nevar miss his classes. He is really caring, understanding and loving. Thank you Mr. Liew for everythins... (smiles till mouth ache)

11.Mr.Liew is simply the best lecturer for me. Thank you Sir..... (wooo hoooooo)

5.Good Game!! ^_^V (uh?)

The next ones are some of the "constructive" comments

13.Sometimes I don't understand the theory that you try to explain but so far its okay (err ..ok)

14.Still new. Students sometimes make fun of him. Need to be more stern. (well, at least the classes were FUN...)

20.dont be to nervous and dont look the floor when give us lecture. tq for everything :D (was looking at my shoes, they stinks)

24.should keep lectures short and simple. so that student will not be bored. long slides will make student bored and hard to understand. (right right, its NOT my fault if YOU SLEPT in my class!)

Sudden remembrance of some of the desperately lame yet hilariously entertaining answers written by students in my final examination.

Presenting the TOP three joker answers:

Third place:
Q : Describe the function of the lasso tool in photoshop 7.

A : lasso tool is a tool to lasso
(yeah correct!... huh?!...ehh.. wait a minute...)

2nd place:
Q: Give 3 disadvantages of computer-based digital video.

A: - digital video causes people to download movies, cinema close down (err..okaayyyy..)
- need high bandwidth (yap!! you are on the right track!)
- encourage wide spread of porn. (WAT THE!!??)

1st place:
Q: The testing stage of Multimedia development has two phases: Alpha Testing and Beta Testing. Explain the differences.

A: Alpha Testing is test taken by alpha students and Beta Testing is test taken by beta students! (Heck!! Gotta respect such CREATIVE *desperate* answer!!)

Again , very much thank you to all of you students!
Wish u guys the best!!

Semester Begins

2007-06-19T02:58:00.001-07:00

After a short while of quiet semester break...
Then, the Registration Day..
Then 1 week of noisy orientation...
Finally...
New trimester begins!!
Trimester 1!
Went for my first 2 lectures.
The students (the new intakes) are very very quiet like mouse. Wide eyed! Full of hope.
Lecture halls are packed. Guess it wont last for long though as the corruption from seniors starts to creep on them.
Nevertheless, everything went pretty smooth, thank God :)

MMU CF - IF camp

2007-06-19T02:53:00.001-07:00

The MMU CF camp was refreshing to say the least.
Met with some familiar faces from the CyberJaya gang and more not-so-familiar guys of the Cyber Clan.
Nevertheless its good and fun knwing all of them, and also get closer to the malaccan mmu cfers as well.